because I have jerks now and now it is even worse being in my own damn skin now

i am scared. i am also very creeped out to the max right now. i seriously am. People do not know what they have done.
It's fucking creepy!
Everything looks all fucking gross!
I am freaking out!
That shit fucked up my fucking head!
Fuck
I think maybe
I am like seeing shit all on the fucking computer screen
it's fucking scary
im not mad. I am just really scared.
fucking shit looks gross!
Bouncing ass mouses all over the place!
Now my skin just itches itself
I have been scratching this entire time now.
shit.
it fucked me up.
i seriously almost went to the Er or something
i think I am losing my damnmind
all of this is in my mind
i fucking can't stay here
i dont know what the fuck is going on
Then my mom looked so worried
She  said if it keeps up, I might need my damn other anxiety medication
im not even kidding
i fucking hate living
i dont know
really the only thing left for me to do is to just die
shit
this is too much for me
it's too much
I've tried to act like it doesn't bother me so that I wont completely lose my damn mind
BUT every damn thing has all these edges on there
stuff writes itself on there too
Everything is all fucking jumbled up
in like these clusters whenever im here
Now when I go out, I get flash backs
I swear I have a damn twitch coming on
omg i am seriously planning to kill myself right now
i don't want to go back there
it's fucking me up
fuck!